Self Love

Getting Back to Yourself: Mama Edition

I have an affinity for this subject, finding oneself. And maybe the reason is that I have felt so lost on so many days of my motherhood that I didn’t know where to go. I didn’t know who to turn to, or what to even say to my husband. I wasn’t sure who I was…

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Mind Your Own Bees Wax

Lately, I’ve just become fed up. Fed up with others telling me how to live my life, and how you should live yours. As moms, we are inundated with “mommy-shamers” who tell us every day we are doing this Mom thing all wrong. It’s my gut instinct to just ignore this unwarranted advice – actually,…

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My Mother Was Stolen

Our lives changed the day she got her diagnosis. I wasn’t so young that I wasn’t aware of what it meant, but I was quite certain she would beat it. A young girl of 16 doesn’t see death coming. I was more interested in boys, friends, and band. I wasn’t worried about my mom. She…

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Finding Your Mom Tribe

What is a Mom Tribe, anyway? And how do I find one? Well, a Mom Tribe is a group of women who count on each other; whether it’s sharing the carpool duty for after-school activities, bus stop hovering, helping out when one of the group is sick, and just generally being a shoulder to lean…

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Badges of Honor, Crows Feet and All

Almost 40! Some folks would have you believe that they never change. They don’t age. They will do everything they can to stop the ravages of time. I’m not one of them. The truth is that everyone is changing. Everyone. Some say they’re the same, but that’s not completely true. We’re all aging. We’re all…

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I Just Started Running…

So, I’m about to be 40. Well, in about 7 months, but still. I’m looking at 40 and it’s staring me down. I’m counting the gray hairs and feeling the cold in my bones. My back hurts, my ankles hurt, and I’m not as skinny as I used to be. Honestly, I’m fairly comfortable with…

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Life’s a Beach

So today I’ve spent about three hours trying to write. I’ve written a few paragraphs and then deleted them. That’s not what I wanted to say. Then I wrote a couple sentences and didn’t like those. Out they go. I’m stymied. I’m stumped. I’m apparently out of words that mean something besides what I’m currently…

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Christ-like?

I’m struggling. I used to know my beliefs, and I was sure about them.  You know what I mean?  How you’re so sure of everything when you’re younger?  There is no gray; everything is black and white.  It’s either this way or it’s that way.  No middle ground.  I was so sure that God had…

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Hold On, Pain Ends

Today is Wishful Wednesday and that means that I’ve been sitting here thinking of wishes, listening to my heart.  What’s on my heart today is the struggle we all face as Modified Mamas.  The struggle to be the same people we were before our kids were diagnosed.  That struggle, that pulling at your very being,…

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Enough is Enough for Me

Thankfulness.  It’s something we should all strive for.  If we think we have nothing for which to be thankful, we have a sad life, indeed.  Whenever I start to feel down about something, I try to remind myself of the things I have that are amazing.  For instance, when I feel down about my weight,…

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My friends know too much.

It’s Thursday, Mamas and Papas.  You know what that means: another post about the things for which I am thankful.  Today, I’d like to tell you about my friends.  I have a lot to be thankful for, but they are right at the top of a really long list.  I have Florida friends, and I…

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Brandy Eckman

Muffin Top and Me

Usually, on Tell Us Tuesday, we ask you a question regarding your life, your kids’ lives, or your thoughts on something in particular.  Today, I’m going to Tell YOU.  I’m going to tell you about my struggle with my weight, something that is very personal and has taken me a long time to come to…

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Goals Keep Me Sane

For those of you who don’t know me well, I’ll tell you I am a planner.  I’m the sort of person who thinks things through, sees all sides of a situation and then acts on it.  (I’m also a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants kinda gal.  I’m weird.  I should’ve been a Gemini instead of Taurus, that’s for sure.…

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Wishing for Peace

Some days, I wish for lots of things.  Today, I’m finding that I only have one wish.  My wish for Wishful Wednesday is to have a peaceful life.  I went to church on Sunday, after having been away from the fellowship for a couple of years.  Truthfully, I haven’t been an active church member since…

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Thankful for Positive.

Over the last couple of days, I’ve been thinking about resolutions, learning from my mistakes, and trying to learn to love myself.  It’s a hard thing to do; love oneself.  Most days, I’m fueled by coffee, toast, and adrenaline.  Today, is no different, but also there is a sort of acceptance of myself thrown in.…

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